Saturday, February 7, 2009

It's gonna be one of those nights.

Do you ever have one of those days...or I guess in this case, one of those nights, where there isn't really anything wrong. Everything is calm, everything is for the most part as it should be. But for some reason you have the overwhelming need to just sit in a hot shower, or bury your head under your pillow and cry your guts out?

My therapist says it's like an emotional spring cleaning. That sometimes you have all of these thoughts or issues or niggly little doubts that you build up. Things that you set aside or shove in a random corner when it comes up so you can go about your day as normally as possible. After a while it backs up in your head or in your heart and you just have to clear it out. Analyze each piece and put it in it's proper place. Some people cry, some people run or work out till they're so tired they can't see straight, others take care of it in their own way. I guess I'm one of those people who cry.

I'm pretty sure I know what triggered this most recent cleaning jag, just as I know that I'll be fine once all my little thoughts are put away where they should be.

"I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived."
--Margaret Mitchell


Bella@That damn expat said...

Everyone has those days once in a while.
Crying helps. But crying into a bottle of wine purifies ;)

Chris said...

I do the work out route, but lately haven't done well with that for whatever reasons. Maybe I should give crying a good try?

Loved the MM quote.

I hope by the time you read this, you've gotten all the thoughts out and done with.

Candy's daily Dandy said...

I am a cryer (is that a word?) too. I agree with your therapist, sometimes crying just cleanses the soul. Sometimes-no reason-I just cry.

I hope you purge that which ails you.
AND I also LOVE the MM quote too-It resonates true to my life.

Cora said...

Vent, girl, vent! There's nothing wrong with crying. Nothing at all! However you need to get it out, it's all good. :-)

Sassy Britches said...

Crying is mine! And just sleeping it all out sometimes helps. But, yes, I'm with ya on that!

The Unbearable Banishment said...

When your thoughts are headed down a dark path, Buddhism teaches you how to make your mind “like a block of wood.” That is, no ill wind can enter your consciousness. It’s an apt metaphor because it works.

BTW, I am such a tech loser, that I cannot figure out how to add your award to my blog page.

Felisa said...

I like to cry. I mean, I burn myself out first (as a form of self-punishment maybe?) but I end up a wreck then I end up bawling my eyes out. It never fails to make me feel better so do it. I hope you'll feel a lot better and a lot more focused in a few days.

I absolutely love that quote! :)

Amanda said...

I blog. Or run. Now that I have that new treadmill I run a lot.

I also try to remember that my situation is definitely not the worst that it could be, that there are people out there faring far worse and that everyone is carrying something on their shoulders so it's important to be gentle to each other. Usually when I start to think about how blessed I am, it's harder to focus on the things that bring me down.

Try "Just Enough Light For the Step I'm On" by Stormie O'Martian. She's brilliant.

SkylersDad said...

I run when things pile up too much on top of me. I hope that you work things out and are doing well by the time I hit return.

Well, how did it go?

Wish I could give you a hug.

~E said...

All: Thanks for the warm wishes. I'm all cried out and much much much better now that all the nasty is gone from my system. If ever you need to clear the air yourselves, know that all my mental hugs are directed your way!

Sabrae Carter said...

I need a therapist! :)

the iNDefatigable mjenks said...

Everyone has lousy days. Whenever you're in a bad way, you should do what I do and try to think about how much worse your life could be.

For instance, you haven't wrapped your head in a semen-encrusted towel this week.

Kim said...

I usually cry it out. I wish I could work out that much to take my frustrations away. I'd have better stamina.

That was a great quote at the end.